Completely On to You !!

I see the world, as i gaze into your eyes

Trying to see a trace to find myself in you

Intimidating you are, as i try to grab words

Standing clueless & out of place in front of you

Trying to find that friendly smile which keeps on fading from your face

What am i to you stranger, i not know but I wish i knew the answer

But then who am i to say, after all I’m just a kid for you

Wish i could walk to you as those few steps seems miles away

Am i scared to love or are you the one or is it just a crush?

I do wait everyday for your call, obsessed that one day you will

Completely on to you as you fill my thoughts & breathe

But tears drip down as slumber conquers my long wait

As i wait for another dawn, another day to see you!

I Have Learned.. One More Year Acheived !

I have learned that…

Prayers are always answered, though not always the way you want.

Life is intriguingly tough & surprisingly ruthless, but it will never leave you, so long as you hold on.

We always have choices though we end up taking the wrong ones, while craving for the other.

Every person you meet will teach you a lesson, its up to you, to learn from the pain & heartbreaks, or to learn the passion & compassion.

Ignoring a person doesn’t mean, they don’t exist, in actual you might be thinking more than often.

Its easy to ignore your emotions, till you meet someone who can read your silence.

Laughing out is easy; crying from heart is a messy business.

Future is scary, but Your Today was Your Yesterday’s Future.

Special days & special times won’t always come, though we wish happy times come more often & sad times end like a bad dream. The world celebrated & talked about 12.12.12 with all its élan. While I celebrated my b'day with my small bunch of special people. Looking back I don’t see much regrets,  Did learn to take life as it comes? I would miss some people, but guess God had decided better plans for them with him. Looking forward I would need to learn to explain what I feel and listen to my heart, I dont see that happening in the near future though I promised someone that I would work on it. Christmas & New Year is round the corner, the best days of the season, it can never go wrong :)

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Times Ahead, Without You !

Times of days lost & nights blue

When life seems falling apart

 With the roads derailed taking dead ends

I stay, looking ahead at the distant horizon

Wondering, was I meant to go this way

Wishing you was there to walk beside

Wouldn’t have mattered the life & path

As long as you were there till the end!

Silence replaces once long conversations

When lot have been left unsaid, unheard

When pain becomes just another emotion

As tears wonder to drop down or to dry out

I wish, the time had turned once for me

So I could go back & erase those moments

When life had left me alone taking you away

Wishing I had stopped, but my voice confined, heard by none!

Looking back i realize i loved certain places not for their beauty & spirit but for the reason that they give me the best people i know, if i miss something, its their absence the most! Many of them have left behind with time leaving memories for a life time...

The last person i had with the colorful memories of my childhood was my Grandpa, i lost him last month. Life goes on with new people, new places, but i do feel most of the times that I'm at the wrong place with the wrong people. People would always be missed, though at times you try to ignore the pinch & pain!

Walk with The Stranger !

 

Have I realized your existence so lately

As I looked into veiled expression of the stranger-

Was it passive or rigid, how could I know!

Memories flooded leaving imprints or was it my illusion

Looking into those eyes for some acquaintance

Alas! I was as wrong as reality struck hard

I got lost again with thoughts reverberating leave alone.

Tears trickle down silently as I stood and walked away

Wondering all the way why I was there,

I looked behind to see you still there,

But you were gone already leaving the puzzles

Shattering a dream, the one was all mine!

Just relocated to Kerala with a job change. This is suppose to be a place i have known well, but seems like i got to start from the basics including my ways of settling down and adjusting to the new city. City is not bad, though i'm taking slightly more than expected time to settle down. If something got neglected the whole time, it would be my blog. It not coz' i didnt have anything to write, it was more coz' i had too much to write. Glad to be back to my space -

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Musings of a Solitary Soul !!!

Morning rays peeks in evoking me, waking me up
ending my long deep slumber and dreams
as I slowly realize that its just me and my solitude
You have been long gone, leaving the memories-
of a life behind, on a journey of no return
I walk around looking for you, hoping to 
see you play hide n seek, unable find
wishing you unveil yourself yelling my name-
like always as look in astonishment trying to touch you
Silence scares as the once grin face on the portrait-
looking impassive at my teary face; I know
there will be no come back, as the numbness
pull me back to the slumber, I wish as I close my eyes
never to wake up again to see the musings of a solitary soul!

PS: Sometimes long journeys invoke lot of thoughts in your mind, thankfully all ends well :)

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