Back from home, with lot of memories... some may stay for a life time, though some may fade away, it doesnt matter, coz this journey was special for it was not just a visit to home, it was something more than that.
I had my best friends' wedding to attend. There is lot of joy and happiness to see ur best pal getting married (She was looking at her best..!!! TOUCHWOOD) and entering to a new life, and there little sadness and pain that there are more important things coming in her life than this friendship, though we will be same always. But yes! like one of good friend told, its all part of life..... its time to Move On...
I always used to wonder "Moving On" was not so simple as said, infact sometimes it needed us to change our self in fear of hurting ourselves.Though i have heard that time does heal things, i have realised many times that, it doesnt really heal, we just keep these things in our inner memory when we have more important things to worry about, and it does hurt the same way, when we think about it, even if its after years. Specially death of our dear and near ones, i do see my mom crying everytime she talks about my granny who died 10 yrs ago.
This time i was more than happy to see my grandpa. I was seeing him after longgg 2yrs. Ageing couldnt really change him as a person, but he was looking tired, like a shadow of what he actually was. But that strong voice remained there like ever, in that weak body. I could read from his face that he was relaxed to see me, may be he thought i wont come, dnt know.
We talked as usual, about my job, my place, my friends, everything that connected me to the world. He wanted to talk a lot, but then his health didnt allow,he was happy to see me, and i was happy to see him.
Life teaches us things in its most unusual way, sometimes we do ignore and sometimes it doesnt really give a chance to ignore. But all that really matters is that you finally learned the lesson.
This time it was more than seeing your dear ones and staying at home, it actually give me a chance to think, about many things, and to decide which path i should take...given me a chance to know myself more..
March 28, 2009
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the title gave me a feel that its another happy-to-be-at-home post. but as i read it, it proved to be more deep. gud to learn that u had a gala of time :) i wish i had a chance to go home :( its only 9 months tht ive been there, but i already miss the aura of kerala :( u take care and have a nice time.
hmm..i think everyone faces such situations in live...you cant call that selfish..its just that you like your friend so much..so such a feeling is vindicating of close friendship you had!!
Its great to see this underlying feeling in all your blogs...of family, relations, love, friends...
though it makes me sad sometimes, it also makes me nostalgic and sometimes makes me think
Letting go is necessary - for the good of all involved.
@ sawan
:) thnk u.
nomatter where we r, memories abt home is always nostalgic
@ mathew
:) yeh rite, we stil hav a gr8 frndship, bt thn u knw stil its nt the same...
@praveen
i take my blog to express wt i feel or think abt the things happening around me, smetimes i find it btr than talkin 2 smeone u knw..
@ bindhu
Move on... i guess there is no better way go letting things go... than that..
wow good that you kept your promise and met uyou grand pa..
and about best friend's wedding even I went through that 2 years back when my childhood friend got married. But even now we maintain the same relation.. only difference is not her toddler is also part of our happiness :)
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