May 27, 2009

Strangers I Met..!

There are some relations that goes for ever, relations which do not have a particular name, which started for no particular reason, but went on to become a part of our life like our own siblings or sometimes more than that.

My Play School Mate

I was crying and pulling my moms saree “nichu ponda” (don’t wanna go) I doubt whether someone heard that, and those ayas came and took me inside. I stood there in one corner stubborn as always, not wanting to play, till I saw that boy bringing me small bar of chocolate, my first friend, he went on to become my school friend. I know he would have been my best friend if I didn’t left that place when I was in 5th standard only to find him in face book years later. Life has changed so much and we were so different, but he still remembered ‘that girl’, and we had a thousand things to talk.

My School Friend

New place, new people, new language, everyone stared at me as much as I stared at them until a girl got bit guts to give me some space to sit next to her. She took special care in showing me her school, our school, we shared food, we studied together, she was always first to help me out. We were more than happy when we were 1st n 2nd in class. I liked her small hair as much as she loved my long. We were different in all the possible way, but we were friends, may be for a season, she had to go when her father went abroad, I heard from her for the next 2-3 months. I didn’t hear from her after that. Even I went from that place, thx to my parents job, I end up in my homeland. Now after so many years i searched for her, though still unknown.

My Best Friend

She was my friends friend, who always gave me a special attention, who always found time to talk to me though both of us had many more important friends .But of late I did realize that when I really need a ‘friend’ she will be the 1st person to be there, and that was it, she became my best friend, the sister that I didn’t had, someone who kept my secrets , someone who listened to me when I wanted to talk, someone who gave me great advices when I was confused, who gave best ideas when I was out of one, someone who fight with my parents when I had to go outside, our friendship didn’t end in school, we were college friends, our paths were different after that, but we were always a call away. She taught me how to be patient; she taught me life always brings you the best, even when you think your life is going in a bad pace. She taught me that it was always necessary to express as she thought I was always bad at expressing. I went for mba, to join my first job, she was not present, but she made sure she was always aware of what’s happening in my life. The best moment I don’t want to forget is her wedding day, I was happy that she is entering a new life and at the same time I was scared that her priorities are going to change. But reassured me by keeping my updates though she is miles away, I know this is one friendship that has seen all the changes, my school friend, who went to become my college, in fact friend for a life time.

Friends who made a Difference

Some friends I met, very close to my heart, dearest of all, but not my best friend, I always had a tough time defining what they are to me, coz they were close enough to be the best, but something stopped from being the best, they are people who taught me good lessons, people who changed my life, people who I will always remember just for the reason that coz of them I became a better person. It includes my MBA friends, people who showed a new way to see the life, to have a new outlook, to have a big horizon. They taught me to think big and act accordingly. They taught me to be focused on my life. They taught me I should enjoy the life’s journey rather than going behind small problems. They made me enjoy my last college days to the fullest, n of course those friends will be there all the time, n thanks to them, now I have atleast one friend across every nook and corner of the world.
Then there are people I met newly, in a totally new unknown place, starting from the basics, who taught me how small things make a big difference in our life, how it can change. People who taught me saying sorry is not a big thing, its just that it really needs some guts, more importantly its not about saying something, its about whether you really mean it or not. Then there are people who taught me to express myself, who taught me to be more human than devilish. People who taught me its not a crime to love someone, as long as u mean it and do it from your heart, they also taught me love really never affects friendship, though we think it does. They changed my world without changing me, they accepted n appreciated me and scolded me when I am wrong, without hurting me.

The people I mentioned here are those who are and will always be a part of my life, loving me unconditionally and I am proud of having them as my friends.
Edited to Add :- IHM awarded me 3 awrads including the creative blogger n lovely blogger awards, thz a lot IHM.

May 8, 2009

Let me close my eyes...

Its all so calm and peaceful, I should have cried and screamed, but then I remembered,
you should never cry, but I couldn’t help those tears coming out..
For the first time I think, I did something right by opening up my mind and damn it,
I am not regretting for what I did, though its not about all those happy endings..
I should fight for it, I should break those rules,
I didn’t..She asked me, what I want, I thought, bt then finally I was left with no answer,
I don’t know. I know, that’s not what she wanted to hear.
Let you decide how my life should be, but for now, leave me in peace, let me close my eyes...
I don’t want you to read them...