January 19, 2014

New Beginnings..!!



Rays of light hit my face as the slow beams make its way
Deep down into my room through the window pane
Waking me to your mesmerizing smile like a gush of fresh air
I recognize the façade behind the grin returning with a shyly beam
Realizing that it was you all the way I was waiting for
As I walk back holding your hands towards the horizon beginning a new journey.


Life is making it turn on the new year with new beginnings , new hopes & promises and heart to share everything as one!

October 1, 2013

Bouquet of Memories..


Will this be the last time I see you, I know not
As I close my eyes stealing the last glance from you
To keep it safe away in my heart eternally
Those flowers will fade away with time
But no gift would be more precious than that bouquet of flowers-
Having already found its way in my memoir ceaselessly
Partings will always be painful though I may never say one to you
As I walk along my memory lane hoping-
To be caught again by your grin somewhere, sometime beyond time


I will never know what was going in her mind, while walking the altar, but her eyes told a thousand words


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June 19, 2013

Prayer for My Daughter..

 

My dear; Come into a world with no whites or black
But a world with pink, blue & green
A world that’s not prejudiced to gender
Where “She” & “He” is equal
Where her learning & liberty is imperative
Where she is neither a possession to be bought
Nor an asset to haggle for -
A place where your dreams are not taken away on tyranny
A world where your life is on your choices
With the choices made by you, not enforced on!
Come into the world where your body & soul belongs to you
Where you are worried only by the goal not the journey
A world that allows you to do mistakes, to learn from them
A world where you fly like a bird persistent & unscathed
Where promises are made to you, not on you
Where your tears are precious & your smile is priceless
Where life keeps turning you to your roles graceful
As you be the daughter to the sister to the companion
To the world so wonderful, to see the world everyday grow old!
 
One of my good friends becomes a mother recently with a baby girl. While congratulating on her big news & talking about the plans she have for her new born, she exclaimed, “I’m worried, every time I’m late from work & my travel alone, will i ever make it home safe? – i can’t think about having my baby, going through those bad experience and worrying all the time about her safety, this place is not safe anymore, you know“ and she went on..!
She belongs to the generation-x which we proudly call; modern, intelligent & carefree, ever ready to do the things she wants – this other side of hers took me by surprise. I wonder, how many people will be there who think like her, I’m sure many –
Are we worried about having a girl child because she is not safe in the current world; Are we really giving the right message to the world, Think it over!!

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June 11, 2013

Times Unknown !!

 
Times move on leaving me behind the edge
Leaving with the memories of the gone,
Leaving to the world of unknown, you move to the fore
Swift with fiery as you thrash the once known & dear
Leaving me powerless to act, broken & wounded
Unable to heal the broken memories; you the great healer
Will you ever come back to take me with you;
Or will you leave me to seize the time!
 
Been to watch “Yeh Jawani” movie today, loved it for some superb acting & some lovely not so stereotype moments!  Funny, but it made me look back to the time that had quite faded knowingly or unknowingly – reminding me of some wonderful people I had met & made friendship with! But what i remembered most was my days with R & V, though what pinched me the most was that those days won’t come again. Though i have million happiest moments after that, i still have the best ones with them. Life is intriguingly tough & surprisingly ruthless, but then we always hope!
Oh i changed my blog name – after so much thought – felt the current one suits it better, though loved it when people called me Devilish!
 
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May 2, 2013

My World of Illusions !!

 
Oh! How incredible this life is, the magical journey of illusions
Like a dream, you give me the world in one hand for a moment
To steal it all away then for a life time; is it fair?
But I may never ask, for it was always you who have won
I’m just a fool, looking at the chimera with wonder eyes
Had I known it would break into pieces with my touch
I would have stayed away & pinch myself for the reverie
It was all so real, how have I know the difference
As I stumble upon the shattered crumbs of my once perfect world
Powerless to move about to take back & mend
Will you ever bestow me a chance to win?
To enthral in my dreams as I see it now
Not to be deceived by the world of illusions!
 
 
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January 29, 2013

Completely On to You !!



I see the world, as i gaze into your eyes
Trying to see a trace to find myself in you
Intimidating you are, as i try to grab words
Standing clueless & out of place in front of you
Trying to find that friendly smile which keeps on fading from your face
What am i to you stranger, i not know but I wish i knew the answer
But then who am i to say, after all I’m just a kid for you
Wish i could walk to you as those few steps seems miles away
Am i scared to love or are you the one or is it just a crush?
I do wait everyday for your call, obsessed that one day you will
Completely on to you as you fill my thoughts & breathe
But tears drip down as slumber conquers my long wait
As i wait for another dawn, another day to see you!

December 12, 2012

I Have Learned.. One More Year Acheived !


I have learned that…
Prayers are always answered, though not always the way you want.
Life is intriguingly tough & surprisingly ruthless, but it will never leave you, so long as you hold on.
We always have choices though we end up taking the wrong ones, while craving for the other.
Every person you meet will teach you a lesson, its up to you, to learn from the pain & heartbreaks, or to learn the passion & compassion.
Ignoring a person doesn’t mean, they don’t exist, in actual you might be thinking more than often.
Its easy to ignore your emotions, till you meet someone who can read your silence.
Laughing out is easy; crying from heart is a messy business.
Future is scary, but Your Today was Your Yesterday’s Future.
Special days & special times won’t always come, though we wish happy times come more often & sad times end like a bad dream. The world celebrated & talked about 12.12.12 with all its élan. While I celebrated my b'day with my small bunch of special people. Looking back I don’t see much regrets,  Did learn to take life as it comes? I would miss some people, but guess God had decided better plans for them with him. Looking forward I would need to learn to explain what I feel and listen to my heart, I dont see that happening in the near future though I promised someone that I would work on it. Christmas & New Year is round the corner, the best days of the season, it can never go wrong :)

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November 25, 2012

Times Ahead, Without You !




Times of days lost & nights blue
When life seems falling apart
 With the roads derailed taking dead ends
I stay, looking ahead at the distant horizon
Wondering, was I meant to go this way
Wishing you was there to walk beside
Wouldn’t have mattered the life & path
As long as you were there till the end!

Silence replaces once long conversations
When lot have been left unsaid, unheard
When pain becomes just another emotion
As tears wonder to drop down or to dry out
I wish, the time had turned once for me
So I could go back & erase those moments
When life had left me alone taking you away
Wishing I had stopped, but my voice confined, heard by none!


Looking back i realize i loved certain places not for their beauty & spirit but for the reason that they give me the best people i know, if i miss something, its their absence the most! Many of them have left behind with time leaving memories for a life time...
The last person i had with the colorful memories of my childhood was my Grandpa, i lost him last month. Life goes on with new people, new places, but i do feel most of the times that I'm at the wrong place with the wrong people. People would always be missed, though at times you try to ignore the pinch & pain!

October 28, 2012

Walk with The Stranger !


Have I realized your existence so lately
As I looked into veiled expression of the stranger-
Was it passive or rigid, how could I know!
Memories flooded leaving imprints or was it my illusion
Looking into those eyes for some acquaintance
Alas! I was as wrong as reality struck hard
I got lost again with thoughts reverberating leave alone.
Tears trickle down silently as I stood and walked away
Wondering all the way why I was there,
I looked behind to see you still there,
But you were gone already leaving the puzzles
Shattering a dream, the one was all mine!


Just relocated to Kerala with a job change. This is suppose to be a place i have known well, but seems like i got to start from the basics including my ways of settling down and adjusting to the new city. City is not bad, though i'm taking slightly more than expected time to settle down. If something got neglected the whole time, it would be my blog. It not coz' i didnt have anything to write, it was more coz' i had too much to write. Glad to be back to my space -

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May 21, 2012

Musings of a Solitary Soul !!!


Morning rays peeks in evoking me, waking me up
ending my long deep slumber and dreams
as I slowly realize that its just me and my solitude
You have been long gone, leaving the memories-
of a life behind, on a journey of no return
I walk around looking for you, hoping to 
see you play hide n seek, unable find
wishing you unveil yourself yelling my name-
like always as look in astonishment trying to touch you
Silence scares as the once grin face on the portrait-
looking impassive at my teary face; I know
there will be no come back, as the numbness
pull me back to the slumber, I wish as I close my eyes
never to wake up again to see the musings of a solitary soul!


PS: Sometimes long journeys invoke lot of thoughts in your mind, thankfully all ends well :)

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May 14, 2012

Return of the Rains !

 
Looking at the sky to the changing colors and moods
as the summer breeze cools down giving way to the rain
as the tiny droplets dance to the tune of breeze till it finally hit the sand
splashing all the way, declaring its arrival, making me wonder
is it the mighty you, or you know, I would be watching you all the way!
Do you still remember that little girl in frock playing in the rain, hidden -
away from an unknown world beyond the walls in the protective arms of her mother
unaware of the challenges she will face and the griefs she will bear
As she played in the tiny raindrops with her little hands
and sometimes popping out her little head in rain
did you know, you wont hurt her, that She will always  be happy to see you.
 
My hands are not little anymore, I still love playing in rain
but why is it that every time your droplets touch me
it hurts, though it never pierced, bringing tears in my eyes.
Is it that you know me too well that you wash away  my  tears without a trace;
You with your mighty thunders and lights still know that I’m not afraid-
that I’ll never be afraid of you, but  will be waiting;
those little hands may have gave way to wrinkled, weary fingers,
though time cant change much to the memories of those rainy days!



PS: Im totally in love with the summer rain in Bengaluru! Its a rainy treat everyday, what a way to end a summer day :) 

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April 17, 2012

Color My Life...




Color my world with your love n spread the smile
Color my dreams, let it spread the wings and fly high
Color my hopes, let it sail beyond the seven seas
Color my memories, let me cherish them for eternity
Color my tears, let them drop down on the rainbow
Color me blue, red or pink, lets forget the black n white!



 Childhood days are the best, carefree, worry-free life with No deadlines. As a child, bad day for me meant sharing my chocolate with others or allowing brother to lie down in papa's lap. Lives have changed, you have grown up, but when you start your conversation by saying “When I was a kid”, you know, you are getting old and missing your childhood days. But what we lost the most is the innocence which got lost in this journey of transition.


Friends, You made my days perfect! Without you, I don’t think I would have done all those things, thinking now I know 'How crazy that was'. I can very well understand those deadly looks on parents and teachers. I may not break the traffic rules again, I may not jump the wall to watch movies, I will never again send rockets in class rooms or I will never try to give food to a bear using my hands, I will never ride around the city in rain to get completely drenched. Those are days which belong to Us not Me.


Some of the best moments in life are unexpected and simple. Be it playing in mud on a rainy day or the small puppy you got from you best friend as a birthday gift  or meeting someone you had crush on accidentally or when you hear the news that you gonna be a mausi! Life is amazingly beautiful and painfully real.


One of the most precious relations made by God! I believe in angels from the day I opened my eyes, the day I saw my mom. I do wonder at times, how God made someone so patient, loving and forgiving. I know no matter what, at the end of the day, she will be there always a call away or a touch away! The most important thing is, you know that there is someone who completely trust and believes in you.


 One of the beautiful expressions of nature! Is there anyone who don’t like rain. I love rain, the monsoon rain specially, its beautiful, fierce, but end like a soft breeze touching you deep down. Have you ever noticed the nature after rain? For me rain brings back my childhood days, sitting in the courtyard watching rain and then trying to play in rain without allowing granny to catch me, making paper boats and playing with my cousins in water. I know some of you would be worried about the dirt. Trust me, once you are in rain, you wont even think about it, and the best part is that it got amazing healing powers :)



 My first & best friend, my strength and what not! When you are known to be a Papa's gal, you know how much you are inspired by him trying hard to follow his footsteps. He is the only person around, where I don’t want to grow up, always want remain as his little girl, who walks holding his hands and still do when he is around. What I remember the most will be my initial school days where he used to sit with me morning till evening in the class, coz he didn’t wanted to see my tears. Years have gone by, but nothing have changed much when I see him waiting for me at home eagerly. I’m glad I’m Pa's best girl, guess that’s what every daughter wants to be.

 

Life is like a roller coaster with its ups & downs, turns & twists, but it’s a beautiful journey where each day brings its own share of excitement and surprises. There is a pinch of salt, there are moments of hurt, but then you also learn to laugh. Is it the life itself, or is it the people around that make life so special!


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